In a few short weeks I will be embarking on a new journey. After many years of telling Jesus I love him and I will follow him, I am doing it. Jumping in with both feet. The crux of this blog is to represent the truth about homosexuality as I see it and most importantly as I lived it. Over the last year I have seen the emergence in various media outlets of gay “Christians”. These are individuals who believe that homosexual desires are not sinful in and of themselves. They have even gone to the point of defaming Jesus in the process by saying that He never spoke out on the issue of homosexuality. While it is true that Jesus never said the phrase, “Homosexuality is wrong.” He did address all forms of sexuality other than the God designed one man and one woman model.
Matthew 15:18-20 But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man ‘unclean.’ 19 out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. 20 These are what make a man ‘unclean’… When Jesus speaks of sexual immorality and adultery, he is covering all sexual relationships outside the union of a man and woman, which was God’s design from the beginning.
Yesterday I was emailed the link to a young man’s website who conducted an extensive, yearlong, research study on how the bible never says that having homosexual desires is a sin. I think about how connected to God he would have been if he had instead spent that year as I did, getting to know the personage of Jesus Christ.
In 1999 I separated myself away from everything I knew. I was beat and tired after having lived 10 years as a gay man. I left Christians and gays behind in order to put myself in the Holy Spirit Hospital. If I had spent that entire year trying to justify my homosexual desires instead of trying to find the roots and causes of them, I would have wasted another year of my life.
We are not to live our lives with our sexual desires as the focus. Jesus is not an accessory. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. The bible may never identify homosexual desires as a sin, but if we call ourselves Christians or Christ like, aren’t we supposed to deny ourselves daily and pick up our cross and follow Jesus. Mark 8:34 "When He had called the people to Himself, with His disciples also, He said to them, 'Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me."
This blog is not to bash gay Christians, only to bring light to the darkness. I, too, was deceived like my friends in the gay Christian community. I lived every day professing Christ, knowing full well that he was asking me to surrender my whole life to Him. I also knew that though I felt I was born gay, that the inner call of the Holy Spirit was such that I knew that homosexuality was not God’s plan for me. I held one hand out to embrace Christ, but held the other behind my back tightly clutching my homosexuality. As a Christian, you owe the real, life humans of the gay community your prayers. Don’t pray that they become straight. Has straight ensured that you are issue free? Pray that every man and woman of the LGBT community would come to know Jesus Christ in an intimate way. Pray that they would surrender every aspect of their lives to Jesus. Pray that his transforming power could restore to them a life stolen from them at birth. The bible says that the truth will set us free. Don’t they deserve the freedom that you and I take for granted with every single, unworthy, unappreciative breath we steal from God.
I called the gay community home for 10 years. In some ways the gay community is more loving than any church I have attended. They understand brokenness. They understand rejection. They are also dying every day and entering into eternity without Jesus. Is Jesus a gift that you selfishly hoarde? Or is Jesus the most precious gift you have to offer to the world? Like it or not, satan has established his kingdom in the hearts of the gay community. Let us pray for life altering revival to flood their ranks. Let Jesus be victorious in their lives today.