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Another Earth Shattering B-L-O-G

When I was in college, I studied Invertebrate Zoology.  Our professor believed that if you teach a student, 100 pieces of information, statistically they’ll only retain 10% of the info.  To combat such low retention rates, he’d present us with 10,000 pieces of information.  Learning in his lectures was like trying to singlehandedly drink the Ocean. I wrote a paper for him on an ocean creature called the Rhizocephalan Barnacle.  This barnacle lives out its very, destructive life cycle attached to the reproductive organs of a female crab.  Once attached, the barnacle sends out Rhizas or “roots” into the crab’s tissues.  These “roots” allow the barnacle to siphon off precious nourishment from the crab.  Worst thing of all is that the barnacle's body rests where the host's egg sac should be.  The crab's behavior is chemically altered and does not molt until the barnacle's body drops off.

The Rhizocephalan barnacle reminds me of a virus in the way it infiltrates the crab’s, body and affects many aspects of it's growth.   Like its “roots”, a virus uses the bloodstream to infect every organ in our body.  A computer virus also comes to mind.  Destroy every part of a computer’s hardware, but leave the hard drive untouched and the computer’s memory is preserved.  Yet, introduce a virus into the hard drive and left unprotected, it doesn’t matter if the computer is brand new, the computer’s brain will be corrupted. Why all this talk of corruption?  It’s obvious.  Sin works the same way.  Sin starts as tiny suggestions in our young minds.  It eventually grows to insure that we are well versed in sin as adults.

The life cycle of homosexual sin in my life began in just that way.  I knew I was different than other boys.  I knew I found older men intriguing, but not in a sexual way.  Thank God when I was a teen there were no gay activists waiting to hi-jack my feelings and enslave me with the gay-proselytizing rhetoric of today.  Thank God I was in a solid, bible preaching church that instilled the truth in me, before satan was able to do more mental damage.  Thank God I was able to do my own research on the roots and causes of male homosexuality.  That research revealed that homosexuality can develop when a child who was born artistic, sensitive and creative (not gay), is raised by a distant father, an abusive brother and an overly bonded mom.   In addition to these factors, peer relationships and early exposure to pornography and masturbation helped to transform my simple and confusing feelings of being different into feelings of being gay.   Research proved to me that there were causative agents for my homosexual feelings.  So don’t tell me I was born gay suckah, because I’ve done more than my fair share of time in the library.

It was interesting to me as well how similar the crab's reaction to the barnacle was to my body and mind's reaction to homosexuality.  My struggles with homosexuality short circuited my desire and ability to have a wife and kids.  And just as the crab's molting or growth stopped, homosexuality is often nicknamed "Peter Pan Syndrome" or called "Arrested Emotional Development" because of the lack of maturity in gay men and their refusal to grow up and accept the aging process.  All of this held true for my life and many of the gay men I knew over my 10 years in the gay community.

From my experience with some gay activists, they are out to genuinely help young people who struggle, as are some Christians.  However, I also believe that a majority of the louder gay activist voices operate in a militant fashion that seeks to add to their ranks rather than increase quality of life to those who struggle.  The phrase "misery loves company comes to mind". Part of the truth to this is that they have now added a 'Q' and a few other letters to their now infamous LGBT moniker.  What does the 'Q' stand for?  Questioning.  Hmmmm.  I fell into that category for a large portion of my life, but not for the reasons that the gay community might endorse.  I questioned the presence of homosexuality in my life, because the bible very clearly calls it sin.  Also, NEWSFLASH, I didn’t want to be gay.  And it wasn't because I was Anti-gay.  I wanted a wife and kids.  I wanted a family like mine, albeit a little less dysfunctional.  For the 10 years I was more ‘G’ than ‘Q’ for two good reasons: peer pressure to “be who I was meant to be” and the feeling that my overwhelming, homosexual desires were unbeatable.   When God gave me hope that I could be a ‘Q’ again and ultimately a ‘B-A-C’ (born again Christian) and give up ‘G’ for good I was super ‘O-K ‘with that.  All it took was the B-I-B-L-E.

I think it is very irresponsible for the gay agenda to encourage youth to come out while they are still in middle school and high school.  I grew up in a town of 1500 people and attended a high school of 250 kids in a small town in Oklahoma.  No amount of bullying legislation is going to protect a kid like me in a town where he's seen as an outcast, where the school system can barely afford teacher's let along extra security.  Coming out for me would have been a death sentence, but they don't  seem to be too concerned about kid's in small towns hearing their generic declarations.

Don’t be fooled my questioning friends.  The addition of the ‘Q’ is not as much of an altruistic act as you might think.  There is a catch.  The gay agenda’s goal isn't an effort to provide you a nice, quiet place to work out your issues as much it is a forum to forcefully and adequately convince you that you are a ‘G’ an ‘L’ a ‘B’ or a ‘T’.  I would even guess that practicing ‘B’s, might ruffle the gay agenda’s feather’s, because even that indecision lessens or greatens their numbers based on all the ‘B’s sexual preference for the moment.  Ultimately it’s not about finding a place to belong.  It is about satan locking people: mind, body and spirit into a destructive life, in an effort to take another unmerited potshot at God and his amazing creation.  I mentioned a catch.  The inclusion of ‘Q’ is not so much that all ‘Q’s can have the freedom to ponder over their broken sexuality.  It's an attempt to increase group numbers and strong-arm those who feel that homosexuality isn’t right for them into one of two places: submission or silence.

I was the victim of that type of "cannibalistic" bullying from gay friends and foes.  When I finally decided to go from a ‘Q’ to a state of ‘W-C’ (Who cares) and then to a ‘B-A-C’ (Born Again Christian), I got a few letters and emails dripping with healthy doses of the hate that gay advocates accuse everybody else of spewing.  Ironic!  The gay community yells “HATE” or “Anti-gay” in an effort to kill all legitimate conversations about the issue.  Don’t believe me.  Count how many times you hear the words “Anti-gay” when someone references a biblical explanation of homosexuality.  It would seem that a community that cries out for tolerance so often would have a few less double standards and a lot more...well...tolerance.  Anyway, the correspondence accused me of being in denial and delusional.  I even had one guy that told me that if I walked away from homosexuality, I must not have ever been really been gay.  Yep, that’s it.  I was just experimental for 10 years.

The same way that satan infected my mind against God’s plan for my sexuality, is the same way he has subtly, over time, woven the acceptance of homosexuality into societal beliefs over the last few decades.  Homosexual rights activists have worked to normalize homosexuality, hi-jacking the blueprints and ideology of Civil Rights in America.  Homosexuality has successfully worked it’s way onto every major network slowly, surely and effectively.  If you don’t believe me, ask some people in your church who would agree that homosexuality is a sin, if Modern Family is on their D-V-R.  satan has worked to the point that society as a whole speaks of  “race” and “homosexuality” equally, without people even so much as flinching.  But if you do object, prepare for the backlash, hate and intolerance.  Ironic...yet again, I know.  The assimilation was subtle and effective and no one saw it coming.  Well, I did, but my voice isn’t as loud as the Hollywood horde, pushing every major unbiblical agenda on the world.

I fired Hollywood for the most part awhile back when I got rid of cable and my TV.  I don’t expect anyone else to do so, but God is calling me more and more to let my yes be yes and my no be no and to call sin, well…sin.  To practice the power of the veto when it comes to information asking for passage into my brain.  You see friends, at the end of the day I think my professor had a good concept.  For me, I choose to put 1000 scriptures in my head rather than 5 minutes of God dishonoring information that comes through the “Hellavision”, as my friend Sy says, and into my home.  Now obviously, evicting TV and cable is not for everyone.  It should be, but it isn’t.  I do believe God calls us to discern between Godly and worldly things.  1 Peter 2:11 Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul.

1 Peter 1:13 Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self–controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. 14 As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15 But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16 for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.”

Living the Christian life is hard enough without having to weed through the garbage that is coming out of California and New York.  I don’t think it should be news that another Disney star took some nude pics.  I live in the city of Disney and personally I think they should change the name to “The Horniest Place on Earth” with some of the stories that I have heard.  What it comes down to is this.  If you were to throw a dinner party in your home, you wouldn’t invite half of your TV celebrity crowd based solely on their political and spiritual beliefs.  Why on earth are you going to invite them into your head daily?  Television shows are nothing more than mental masturbation; a whole lot of mindless, selfish pleasure with absolutely no productive results.

1 Peter 4:3 “For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do—living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. 4 They think it strange that you do not plunge with them into the same flood of dissipation, and they heap abuse on you.”

My question to you is do they think you are strange or are there no visible differences between the life you lead and theirs?  God clearly calls Christians to a different standard of living as we live out these last days.  1 Peter 4:7 “The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self–controlled so that you can pray. 8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 9 Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. 10 Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms.”

This blog will most likely be labeled as Anti-gay hate speech and I am okay with that if it makes people wake up and smell the Axe Body Spray.   To those Anti-gay quoters, I’d say, put down your pissy attitude and your “rainbow flag” and I’ll put down my pen and my “bible” and we’ll do lunch.   As the verse above challenges us, I love many gay people deeply.  I have shown that over the last 14 years of ministry to the gay community.  I recently consoled two gay men after difficult breakups with their boyfriends.  I prayed with them.  I shared my heart.  I loved on them, because God loves them no matter what.  His love doesn’t change the fact that without Jesus, they are lost.  I know the truth of God’s word.  I know that He has placed me in their lives to deposit truth in order so that they too may have the eternal gift of life that Jesus gives to all who repent of their sin and trust in him for salvation.

God calls Christians to proclaim the good news of Jesus Christ.  He doesn’t call us to bicker over whether to light candles, speak in tongues or dance around with flags on Sunday or Saturday evening service my friends.  Jesus is the reason for the season.  He is in fact, the only reason to exist.  We are to live lives as close to Christ’s example as we can.  Jesus Christ wasn’t a messenger of this drippy, soury, sweet love that removes responsibility for sin and keeps people on a fast train to hell.  He came to do the will of his Father.   He came to show us the way and speak the truth first in love.  He told one woman caught having sex with her “boyfriend for the moment” that he didn’t condemn her for her sexual sins and he encouraged her to go and sin no more.  He did not pat her on the head and say I know you can’t help but act on your sexual urges and then instruct her on the proper use of condoms and say “Get R Done”.

We’ve reached a tragic end in our world today when the truth of the bible that actually saves lives is looked upon as rubbish and shows like “Sex in the City” are the method by which we choose to empower women by teaching them to act more like horny, adolescent men.  Really?  We have also stooped to an all-time low when God’s word is simply labeled as ancient knowledge in an old book.  You must ask yourself my Christian friend, “Am I responsible for people thinking what they think about Christians?  Is the lens of my life that focuses Jesus into this world a dirty, ridiculous mess or do I make people stand up and wonder ‘what makes them tick, I gotta get some of that.’ ”  1 Peter 2:11 “Live an exemplary life among the natives so that your actions will refute their prejudices. Then they'll be won over to God's side and be there to join in the celebration when he arrives.”  Matthew 5:16 says “Let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify your father who is in heaven.

The gay community needs your prayers more than they need your religiosity.  Pray for these strong men and women of influence: Rosie O’donnel, Anderson Cooper, Ellen DeGeneres, Oprah Winfrey, Lady Gaga, Elton John, Justin Lee, Neil Patrick Harris and Dan Savage and Ryan Murphy.   Your kids and your family members are listening to their voices.  Pray that they do more than just “good” in the world; that the message of the gospel would be heard coming from their lips.

I write this blog specifically to a few demographics.  Men and women who desire to walk out of homosexuality, men and women who know God and have walked away from gay and who walked back in and every Christian who knows how to live a pure and holy life, but lives like crap out amongst those who are perishing daily.   This blog isn’t written for happy and proud LGBT’ers.  It is written for those to whom the truth of the Word has been revealed.  There are plenty of blogs out their celebrating homosexuality.  There are far less people speaking the truth in love, so that maybe just one more person can come to a salvation knowledge of Jesus Christ.

I am a couple thousand miles away from my home right now, not because I needed a lavish vacation, but because there were three young men who know Jesus, but are struggling with homosexuality.  Over the next two weeks I will be strategizing on how to share the redemption story of Jesus Christ with these men.  I will go wherever the gospel needs to be preached.  I have experienced many men who hear the word and reject it, but as I am commanded in the Word, I gotta dust my feet off and minister to people who are desperate to hear the truth, not silence it.

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